New Revelation!

It's been a little while since I last posted something, but not a lot has happened in the older men category until recently. So Mr. Editor went M.I.A. for a little while, but now he is back. A few weeks ago Wednesday he was guest DJing at a tiny little nothing bar with his old records, which was pretty cool. I was invited so I stopped by to say hey and have a few beers. A few beers then took us to a more private venue where we proceeded to talk about our intentions with each other. Now I knew something was up because I wasn't really hearing much from him,  and well, if I guy is interested, at any age, they do whatever they can to get your attention. I was skeptical because I thought he just wasn't interested, but it turns out he just doesn't want to date. He still wants to see me, and have sex, but not date. As you can imagine this is not what any girl wants to hear initially, and I wasn't sure what to think about it.

Like I mentioned before DO NOT sleep with an older man until there is commitment unless you want to be a booty call. I had to give Mr. Editor credit because at least he isn't playing games, just laid it all on the table, take it or leave it. I have been in a similar situation before so I was a little apprehensive about jumping on this bandwagon. At the same time there is a very strong sexual chemistry between the two of us that doesn't happen ever with me!

He wanted me to go home with him that night, but I was strong enough to say no. I needed time to think about this and figure out what I really want. I enjoy his company and I think the sex would be good. I am also at a point in my life where I am not ready for anything serious and hope I don't meet Mr. Right yet. At the same time I have been through this before and I didn't like the outcome. I say I can separate my feelings, but in the end I can't. I want to date many guys, but I don't have sex with any of them because there isn't a great enough reason to. If Mr. Editor and I made this a regular thing, I could have sex and date whomever I wanted. The issue that might come around though is that I spend too much energy and time on him and don't end up dating other guys, which happened last time.

I have already been over once now. I was too curious I had to test the waters. There has been no sex yet just foreplay, and I am still not too sure what to think about this. I feel that because of what happened last time I know the red flags and can get out before I get too deep. Nothing has clicked with me yet on what to do, so I am going to go with the flow and see what happens. I'm way too curious to not act on my desires. I play by the rules in everything else in my life. I need a little excitement to get me through. Plus, older men think your body is amazing no matter what your insecurities are. I had never thought of that before. Think about women who are older and don't keep up their bodies or have had kids. I am sure a young 20 something body looks like it is airbrushed. It definitely made me feel good when he went on and on about how great my ass was. Anyways, I think I will be learning some new lessons when it comes to the art of older men with this one. I just hope I am able to learn them and be able to walk away unwounded in the end.